Weigh-In: 206

I’ve switched to a new scale, so there’s no guarantee on how accurate a reflection this is of my progress. However, the scale I used previously isn’t well under my control, and it was out of the way to weigh myself. So this is the new attempt; I bought a high-class scale that stores weigh-in information and all that jazz.

According to this scale, I now weigh 205.6. That’s 4 pounds from 9 days ago, but obviously at least some portion is a difference in the scales (which one is more accurate, of course, is a difficult question). Hopefully I’m still losing weight at a healthy pace.

The good news is that I’m well on track for getting to the goal of “under 200 by the end of the year.” In fact, under 200 by the end of November may be in the cards. If I pull off “under 190 by the end of the year,” I’ll be fairly ecstatic.

Weigh-In Update

This week’s weigh-in wasn’t done using my standard method or location, so it could be off. I weighed in at 210 on my home scale.

Last week was 212 or so. We’re on a track that’s not totally unhealthy.

Anyway, it’s the last weigh-in of the month, so snapshot:

Compared to last month:

And to the start of this trip:

Weight Loss Update (216lbs)

My weigh-in today puts me at 216. While this is good news in some sense (I’m losing weight still, and it’s a good deal closer to healthy; I lost 3lbs from last week, which is vaguely reasonable), I am a bit concerned.

The concern is two-fold. First, that 3lbs is right on the cusp between acceptable and unhealthy. Second, that I felt disappointed to have only lost 3lbs. While I’ve tried to remain rational during the extreme weight-loss of the last month or so, I didn’t recognize the excitement in dropping that much weight until it stopped.

There’s a fear that the slow in weight-loss may pattern into a completely halted weight-loss. That bothers me most. I’ve been very happy to be on course again, and while the ideal is to consistently lose 2lbs a week for the next 22 weeks (5 months), the idea of losing 4lbs per week and being at my ideal weight by the end of the year … well, it definitely had an appeal.

I’m trying just to stay calm about it. That I’m losing less weight actually means my tactics for minimum calorie intake have been working. But anyway, that’s the update. 216lbs today. My goal is 214lbs next Thursday.

Freaky Weight-Loss

I’ve been doing my weekly weigh-ins on Thursdays. On September 8th, I weighed in at 235lbs. It is now 3 weeks later and I weigh, according to the same scales, 219lbs.

It’s entirely likely that it’s mostly water weight. It’s very likely that the scale is miscalibrated. The fact remains: I have lost something to the tune of 5 pounds per week. Which is not healthy.

I’m trying to lose weight, yes, but I’m not trying to lose it so fast! For now, I’m just going to write it off as the “bonus weight” you lose at the beginning of a program. Still, if this continues, it will lead to more than just raised eyebrows from me.

Anyway, current stats:

Weight: 219lbs
Waist: 37″
Approximate body fat: ~26%

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And I’ll do another weigh-in pic every month, on the final Thursday. Here’s the last one I did, from July:

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And, because I need a reminder:
12-6-08

Re-Committing to Me

In July of last year, I “put my weight on hold.” Then, at the beginning of this year, I decided that I would pay off my consumer debt – even if that meant resorting to binge eating as a way of coping with work stress. The net result is that I went from approximately 185 pounds in July ’10 to 235 pounds today.

Was it worth it? I don’t know, but in either case, I’m done now. The problem is I’ve replaced all my good habits with terrible ones. I’ve been binge eating, smoking a pack a month, hopping up on Lortab, cheating on my veganism with junk food, and otherwise terrorizing my body’s health.

I keep thinking, “one more binge.” That there’s just one more project I should get through, one more week or month before work stress is done. But the reality is that the stress keeps coming – just from different sources.

So today, September 8th, as of 9:12am Mountain Time, I’m re-committing to me. I want this year – the twelve month period from now to September 8th, 9:12am MT, 2012 – to be about finding that healthy place mentally, emotionally, and physically.

There will be a great many steps along the way. Here are a few:

  • Continue attending my fitness courses. I have four of them, meaning a two hour workout four times a week. I also walk to and from classes, a total of a 30+ minute walk, each day.
  • Re-committing to veganism. I can’t feel good ethically about eggs and my body hates dairy.
  • Cutting out processed foods. Oreos, packaged brownies, and anything else that’s been designed for maximum shelf-life is out.
  • Experimenting with gluten-free. Until October 8th, I’ll be going on a gluten-free diet. There’s some evidence that gluten is tied to poor muscle recovery, depression, and fatigue. Seems worth a go.
  • Hitting a weekly goal. I want to lose two pounds each week. I know that’s a lot, but I need the momentum to stay motivated. Here’s a chart I made with my goals.
  • Enroll for fitness courses in each of my upcoming semesters. I don’t want this to die out after this semester is over. Classes help keep me motivated and organized.
  • Improving stress management. Some of this will be removing stress sources from my life. Some of this will be me learning new coping methods. A lot will be exploration.
I’m looking for a lifestyle change here. I hate hating myself. I’m done with misery and self-loathing. Enough with the tragedy. My life’s story deserves a better genre.